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Crossing the Bridge

Old Writings By July 27, 2009 Tags: , No Comments

He’s taking too long and she couldn’t wait anymore, so she slung on her backpack, tied a sweater to her neck and got out the door, into the cool of the night. Walking nonchalantly in the semi-darkness, with only a faint light coming from the only two lamp posts that illuminated the long street, she kept her eyes on the street corner. The neighborhood dogs never bark at her, she thinks it is because they think of her as kin. She saw him walking in a surprisingly leisurely pace, a second after the light from the sari-sari store right in front of the town’s only waiting shed hit his dark face. She continued walking, waiting if he will recognize her face in the darkness. He does, and she laughs.

“You couldn’t wait anymore?” he asks.

“Well, yeah,” she says with that hearty little girl laugh she has.

And they walk together back.

“What path did you take on the way here? Here? Here? Or there?” motioning to him with her chin.

He answers her with a “Here” right after the two of them turned the corner. Here was a long dark, flooded when rainy, path right by a humble but pretty resort named after the Palawan pheasant, and it is the path they almost always take to go the beach to swim or to go to the hill. There was the path that winded through nipa huts and grazing land that they are forced to take when the tide is high or the other path between the never-been used but already falling apart from neglect and disrepair Japanese-owned 15-million resort and the only DTI-accredited resort in the town proper and the only one listed in the Lonely Planet travel guide too.

He lets her walk in front of him, lighting her way with his flashlight. She has none of her own. The sea breeze and the sighing surf greeted her face as she emerged from the path with a jump on the sand. She ties her sweater closer to her body as they continue to tread the beach. They come to a big boat tied on the shore blocking their way.

“Wuuh, the water’s cold!” she say, laughing ever so softly as she waded in ankle-deep water to get to the other side. He ran to the other end of the boat and squeezed himself through.

“I can’t wade in the water. I have a wound,” he says apologetically after they both come around.

“Is the water deep over by the bridge?” she asks knowing that they are almost about to reach the bridge.

“It is about waist-deep if you wade in the water. I crossed the bridge on my way,” he answers. Most of the time the water is ankle-deep, and there are stone steps one can use to cross it. She finds it disgusting sometimes to wade in the water, as it is the canal water coming from the hills, rushing towards the sea. The bridge is two coconut trunks laid onto two concrete slabs two meters apart, with no handles.

They come to the bridge and she sees that wading is out of the question, but climbing up the bridge is also difficult since her knee is weak. He senses her dilemma and climbs first. Standing over her, he holds the lamp flashlight in one hand and holds out the other to her. She looks up at his big hand, almost black in the darkness, and places her hand in it. His hand is warm and soft, and hers is small, delicate and smooth. For three seconds, they both feel this union of hands, soft but firm, and it seemed to them both that the whole world was but those two hands. It has been a long time, she thinks, choking a little sob at the back of her throat. He lets her hand go and walks in front of her, holding the lamp at his back to light her path. She gingerly treads her way on the planks. At the end of the bridge, she sees that it is too high for her to jump on her own in her weak knees. He is already on the sandy ground, looking up. She pauses. He holds out his hand again, and she takes it before jumping, landing firmly on her two feet on the sandy ground a meter below. Two seconds of soft warmth. Only in two instances will one ever feel this kind of tingling sensation brought about by a million tiny nerve endings stimulated, neurons jumping one after the other, faster than the speed of light. The meeting of two tentative lips, and the meeting of two trembling hands.

He lets her hand go, if hesitatingly, it was hard to tell. Maybe he let it drop, or maybe he just lost touch, but her hand fell to her sides. She walks on, smiling slightly in the darkness, and skips cheerily on the soft gray sand. He walks behind. The path is still long, and winding. They share a long silent walk.

At the bottom of the hill, he opens the gate for her. She walks in and walks past the bar door that leads into the workshop and heads straight to the wooden staircase and climbs up. The wide expanse of verandah greets her, a sungka is set atop the wooden table in the middle of the verandah. A bamboo seat is leaning on the wall right next to the door. Amidst the rustling of the coconut palm fronds, a gentle breeze caresses her face warmly.

He comes out of the door from the kitchen carrying a tray with two cups of steaming jasmine tea, sets it in the middle of the chair where at the right far end she is now sitting and leaning comfortably, staring into the sea, and he takes his place on the far left side. She takes a cup and utters her soft, childish thanks which he immensely loves and often imitates. She sips from her cup just as he brings up his to his lips. They both stare into the darkness of the sea.

“Where did we go wrong?” she asks.

“It was wrong from the very start,” he says ever so softly.

“Well, I thought it was rather cute…” she says with hurt in her voice, staring into the darkness where the sea is.

“Don’t you think?” she asks, almost in afterthought. As if she had suddenly decided that it mattered that he shared her thought.

Cute. She used the word cute. He looks at her profile in the darkness as he ponders on the word that she had used to refer to the night they first went out. It was far from cute, he inaudibly mumbles, just to himself, only to himself.

Written September 12, 2005

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Lulu (the theatre production)

Theater By July 26, 2009 Tags: , , , 1 Comment

Lulu production poster

LULU by Frank Wedekind

LULU is a story of a person who has no qualms about the body and it’s sexual needs. Lulu, who is the alluring woman in the English version and the captivating transsexual in Filipino, is a being able to explore and express her desires without compromise or guilt. Adored and lusted by men, women and creatures of the world, she takes them to a dance of bodily freedom, of the mind’s liberation and of utter ecstasy. But like any other person, Lulu searches for the other that could accept and understand her seemingly deviant nature.

In her hunt, Lulu meets a myriad of “civilized beasts”: painters, writers, the educated and the ignorant, the rich and poor men, the young and the dying who are upright and honorable by day but transform to hungry animals in the dark. Lulu embraces each person only to find him or her weak and forever trapped by man’s idea of propriety.

Che Ramos and Tuxqs Rutaquio topbills the play as LULU.

Acey Aguilar, Angeli Bayani, Alexander Cortez, Jules de la Paz, Ian Lomongo, Jojit Lorenzo, Missy Maramara, Paolo O’hara, Meynard Penalosa, Andoy Ranay,Gabs Santos, JC Santos and Randy Villarama are included in the star studded cast.

Direction and Choreography: Dexter M. Santos

Filipino Translation: Joel Saracho

Production Design: Tuxqs Rutaquio

Lights Design: John Batalla

Dramaturgy and Additional Text: Patrick Valera

Sounds Design: J Victor Villareal

Photography and Poster Design: Jojit Lorenzo

Wilfrido Ma. Guerrero Theater, Palma Hall, UP Diliman.

English:
16 August 7pm
19 August 7pm
21 August 7pm
23 August 10am

Filipino:
12 August 7pm – Opening
13 August 7pm
14 August 7pm – Gala
15 August 10am, 3pm
16 August 10am, 3pm
20 August 7pm
22 August 10am, 3pm
23 August 3pm

THIS PRODUCTION CONTAINS SCENES AND MATERIAL STRICTLY FOR MATURE AUDIENCES.

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Helicopter Island

Old Writings By July 23, 2009 Tags: , No Comments

On the far end of the beach, lay a pile of big and small rocks. On a ? stone slab, beautiful in gray with streaks of black and white, she lit a cigarette using a match stick and only half-burned the tip. I never could get it right, she thought shaking her head. She laid on the slab, resting her head on a black and yellow life vest, her left hand holding a cigarette stick and the other resting lightly on her abdomen. She closed her eyes and breathed in and out deeply. The stones were on the shaded part of the beach, shielded by a forested cliff rising towards the sky, shielded from the bright burning setting sun. Every now and then, a bird would fly out of the dense forest, and a shrill cry from an unidentified animal would echo through. He came out of the pile of rocks, a few interesting bits and pieces of stones in hand. He saw her lying with her eyes closed, looking so peaceful, a slight smile on her lips, her long flowing black skirt splayed out on her legs and on the stone. He came to where she lay, and sat down next to her, gazing at her for a few minutes. Self-conscious, she opened her eyes and saw him watching her with a slow gentle fire burning in his eyes. She motioned for him to lie down beside her, and he does. Pushing his arms under her head, right where the nape of her neck rests, he re-positioned her small head on his big strong arms, and snuggled close to her. She rested her cheek on the side of his chest, her forehead inches away from his lips and let out a satisfied sigh. He kissed her ever so gently, first on the forehead, then the tip of her nose, and then the eyelids of her closed eyes. Breathing in a contented kind of purr, she raised up her face to his lips, she raised her lips to meet his. Slow kisses. Slow, gentle kisses. Moaning ever so gently, barely louder than a whisper, she opened her mouth and run her tongue lightly on his lower lip. He opened his and met her tongue, tasted each other, savored the taste and lingered. Burning kisses. Hot, burning kisses. He rolls her on top of him, her weight light on his chest, slightly heavier than the pillow he hugs when he sleeps in his own bed without her, not as soft but not as warm either. The feel of her skin on his compares to nothing. The smell of her skin and her hair compares to no one. And their love for each other compares to none.

She stopped, put a finger to his lips, and bit her own, her big brown twinkling eyes stared right into his. She smiled that smile he loves so much. She rolled over back to her side of the stone, twined her fingers with his and stared up at the sky again. Suddenly, she got up, gathered her skirt about her and ran towards the water, laughing. Her feet touching the water, she stopped, and gingerly put one foot into it, then followed by the other. She walked ever so slowly, careful not to slip, her fingers creeping up her legs as she hoisted her skirt higher and higher as the water got deeper Unable to take it anymore, she brought it up to her chest, looked back at him and laughed. “My mother used to walk around the house wearing her skirt like this,” she said laughing and almost shouting at him still sitting over by the stones and his eyes never leaving her. Finally, she took off her skirt, wriggling her head out of the top of it. She stood there half-way into the water, red swimsuit, holding a long black skirt in her hand and staring into the water. It was crystal clear, she could see the stones, her toes, and tiny multi-colored fish darting about. She leapt into the water and attempted to swim, but she could not see in the water clearly without her goggles and so she stood up. The skirt in her hand got in the way of swimming too so she decided to put it back on again, slipping it on top of her head and pulling it right down to her hips. The skirt fell into the water, and stayed there, swaying gently with the waves. She stared down into the water, mesmerized by the vividness of the small red flowers sewed into the cloth of her long black flowing skirt that used to be her mother’s. The swaying of the cloth against her lips felt like his tongue licking the length of her legs, the way he always does when they are making love. It thrilled her and she stayed like that, staring into the water and her red flowers on black. She suddenly remembered him and looked up, then laughed her little guilty girly laugh he loved so much. “Can you see your reflection on the water?” he asked. “No!” she shouts back guiltily laughing still. “My skirt is making love to me. Would you like to feel it too?” grinning mischievously. “You could try on my skirt if you like,” she added with a sly wink. Sitting still on the stone slab, he makes love to her body with his eyes.

The sky had begun to darken, the boatman said they had better get back. They climbed back into the boat, and they heard the sound of motor just as soon as the rain began to fall on the roof and on the water. It was foggy and dark. In the distance, the town could not be seen. The rain water mingled with the salt water spray and stung her face. In her wet swimsuit and her wet skirt, she felt cold. He instinctively slung his arm round her shoulder, enveloping her in his warmth. She snuggled close to him, ever grateful, ever welcoming. He glanced down at her to smile, and she beamed back – a little girl bundled in the arms of a man she had long began to love with all her little girl heart.

August 31st, 2005 at 6:31 pm

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Love Stories : Bakit Galit Ako Sa’yo

Old Writings By July 21, 2009 Tags: , No Comments

Nung una mong sinabing sa wakas ay natanggap ka na at sa katapusan na ng buwan ang alis mo, alam kong dapat matuwa ako para sa’yo. Kaya natuwa naman ako kahit alam kong hindi lang ang buhay mo ang magbabago, kundi pati na rin buhay ko. Alam ko na agad dun pa lang sa sinabi mo.

Hayskul tayo nung nasalubong ko sa corridor ang kaibigan ko – na kaibigan mo rin dahil magkasama kayo. Brown na brown ang suot mong contact lens kaya naalala ko. Akala ko nga matanda ka samin kaya nagulat ako nung sumunod na taon nang makita kong magkaklase tayo. Ang taray mo pa nga eh. Pero gusto kita talagang maging kaibigan kaya dinedma ko ang katarayan mo. Binigyan kita ng sulat na may kasamang bookmark para gamitin mo sa sandamakmak na makakapal na romance novels na forever binabasa mo. Natuwa ka sa sulat ko, at pati na rin yata sa bookmark, kaya napilitan kang maging kaibigan ko.

Mula noon, lagi ako sa bahay mo. Lagi rin kita kausap sa telepono. Gusto kasi kita kasi gusto mo ko kahit baliw ako. Gusto mo rin lahat ng kadramahan at kagaguhang kaakibat ng pagiging tao ko. Gusto kita kasi lahat na lang yata tinatawanan mo.

Nung umalis ka, naningkit ang mga mata ko sa kaiiyak. Natuliro ang boyfriend ko kasi hindi ako nagsalita pero nagngangangawa ako ng isang buong linggo. Di ko masabing sobrang sama ng loob ko kasi hindi kita nakita ni nakausap bago ka sumakay ng eroplano at iniwan ako. Hindi ko rin naibigay ang sulat na utang ko sa’yo.

Inabangan ko ang pagbalik mo, na itinumbas ko sa pagbabalik ng buhay ko, at ng parte ng kaluluwa kong sa pakiwari ko ay dinala mo. Ano ba naman ang isang taon…

Isang buong taong wala ka para tawagan sa kalagitnaan ng mga gabing wala akong makausap, wala ka para puntahan kapag magulo ang aking utak. Sana kung andito ka, baka gumradweyt ako. O kung ‘di man, andun ka para sa akin nung dinisown ako ng tatay ko. Sana sa’yo ko tumira, ikaw ang nagpakain sa akin, ikaw ang nagbayad ng mga pamasahe ko o kung ‘di man magkasama tayong naglakad paroo’t-parito. Sana natulungan mo ko nung away kami nang away ng boyfriend ko – tutal kasalanan mo naman kung bakit naging kami. Nung dinala ko kasi siya sa bahay mo para tingnan siya at itanong kung ano ang gagawin ko, sinabi mong sagutin ko ng oo dahil gwapo. At higit sa lahat, sana sa kama mo ako natulog nung mga gabing ayokong matulog sa akin. Sa kama mo kasi walang nangyayari. Sana ikaw pa rin kasama kong magyosi, maglasing o uminom ng kape. At hindi kung sinu-sinong lalaki.

Kung iniwan mong magulo ang buhay ko at dinatnan itong mas magulo, kasalanan mo. Kasi iniwan mo ako at nawindang ako sa kakahanap ng kapalit mo.

Kung alam mo lang kung gano kita hinanap. Kung ilang sulat ang ginawa ko at ilan pa ang naiwan sa utak ko dahil lang hindi ko alam kung pano sila makakarating sayo. Kung ilang beses kong inangat ang telepono para i-dial ang mga numerong ni hindi ko alam kung ano.

Pero isang taon na ang nagdaan. Inipon ko ang lahat ng kwento ko, pati na ang mga luha ko para sa pagbabalik mo. Pero hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin nakikita ni anino mo. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung saan ko ipapadala ang mga sulat ko. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong mga numero ang ida-dial ko.

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Love Stories : Bakit Galit Ako Sa’yo
Contributed by angkULET (Edited by the_messenger)
Friday, June 18, 2004 @ 05:20:56 PM

First seen online here.

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Surfing Weekend – July 18-19, 2009

Family, La Union By July 20, 2009 Tags: , , , , , , , No Comments
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Pictures are clickable to view bigger image. Too bad we forgot to bring the telephoto lens. So funny to be taking surfing photos with a wide-angle lens. Well, there is always next time. And hopefully, next time I do the walling thing, I am facing the wave so I can hold out my hand.. More importantly, I don’t get surprised (that I am so cool hahahaha!) so I can take it as far as the wave takes me.

Anyway, it was rainy all Saturday so we didn’t get to take any photos. Sunday was sunny though. I should’ve worn my long-sleeved rash guard Sunday instead of Saturday. 😐

It’s my new Roxy boardshorts first time out on the beach by the way. Ryan got it for my birthday. It holds out just fine. Though it’s longer than my Liz Hurley ones and I’m not sure if that’s better. Will find out next time.

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TF Olympics 1st Team Sports from Travel Factor

Travel Factor By July 17, 2009 Tags: , , 1 Comment

TF Olympics posterTF OLYMPICS

1st Team Sports from Travel Factor
Aug 15-16, 2009

GAME NA!

This is a get together bonding event for all TF friends since 2006. On Aug 15-16, 2009, Travel Factor invites you to be part of its 1st Team Sports.

TF OLYMPICS is open to all enthusiast of any skill level whether on volleyball, frisbee, badminton, and relay games.

Be amused. Be a fan. Be athletic. Be one of us. Let’s play and have lots of fun!

REGISTRATION FEE P500 per pax (w/ Team T-shirt)

PACKAGE INCLUSIONS

  • use of badminton covered court, volleyball facilities
  • use of soccer field and track oval
  • supply of drinking water
  • team tshirt
  • Free Limited Edition: Travel Factor Olympics ID

Deadline of Registration: July 19, 2009
Tentative Venue: Meralco Ortigas, Pioneer Mandaluyong, Marikina Sports Complex
Prizes: Sur-prize! To be announced…

DRAFT ITINERARY
Day 1, Sat Aug 15
08:00 AM Opening Ceremony
08:30 – 11:00 AM Frisbee, Relay
12:00 NN Lunch
02:00 – 04:00 PM Mixed Volleyball
05:30 – 09:30 PM Badminton
10:30 PM Socials

** Disclaimer: If in case we won’t be able to finish rounds of all games on Aug 15, we will have a schedule on Aug 16 or whenever the players are free.

GUIDELINES IN JOINING
* Simply download the registration form and send it back to travel.factor@gmail.com Subject: TF Olympics – Registration (Aug 15-16, 2009). Pls read the comments under Main Sport 1, Main Sport 2, Sub Sport 1. There are 3 main sports (Badminton, Frisbee, Mixed Volleyball) and 1 fun sport (Relay/Mini-Games) to choose from.
* Please register only if you are 100% sure you are joining. And if after registering you need to back-out, please have the courtesy to notify us properly thru email.
* For group reservations, please send your registration forms in one file & email.
* You will receive thru email your assigned team and team leader. Let us know if you have the team tshirt already so we will substract it from your registration fee. We will send account details where to deposit payment (BPI).
* Non-refundable but transferable to other person. Travel Factor must be notified asap or at least 10 days before the event. In this case, the “proxy” must fill-out and submit registration form.
* Upon payment, you will receive a copy of complete guidelines, event schedule, and challenger list.
* For inquiries, email travel.factor@gmail.com or txt the assigned officer of this event 0922-8864480 (Tikoy)

FOR INQUIRIES/COMMENTS/SUGGESTIONS
Email your concerns to travel.factor@gmail.com with your name and contact number
Subject: TF OLYMPICS –
INQUIRIES (Aug 15-16)

See more information and download registration form at http://travelfactor.org

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I am not really very sporty. I don’t know any ball games. I don’t play any ball games. I do swim and surf. There are no balls there. I play badminton. No balls there either. Just cocks. Shuttle cocks.

So anyway, the last time I played badminton was back when I was living in El Nido. And we only played in the middle of the street, or sometimes, if the court is free and devoid of basketball players, at the municipal multi-purpose court.

But I’m gonna go play this time. It’s all in the spirit of fun… and games.. and camaraderie.. and so on and so forth. 😉

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Poetry from Zhou Yu’s Train

Movies, Poetry By July 14, 2009 Tags: , , No Comments

Running from place to place, something is bound to happen..

zhouyustrain1My Lake Celestial

To get to your heart, sometimes my voice becomes fragile
Gentle breeze caresses the eel-shaped ice crack,
Lake Celestial, the enchanted celadon,
Melting in my hands soft as your skin

She spills over my Lake Celestial
Totally filled by you, totally filled by you..



Zhou Yu’s Train

Cast:

Zhou Yu……..   Gong Li
Chen Qing……  Tony Leung Kafai
Zhang Qiang…  Honglei Sun

Direction:  Sun Zhou

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A lover is a mirror
through which you can see yourself more clearly

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“Some say that love is not about lasting relationships, but about a single moment of togetherness,” says director and co-writer Sun Zhou. “I don’t agree…what I’m saying about love, and our idea of love, is that it accompanies us for life. It grows old with us. It will always be with us. I think what’s important is not who we fall in love with, but whether or not you have that feeling inside your heart, that feeling that excites you and controls your life.”

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I saw you in a dream
Moving like a pool of swirling bubbles
Formless and inexplicable
You dance gracefully
Slowly consuming me
Consuming the night
Consuming yourself

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“’Zhou Yu’s Train’ is about a woman trying to find herself,” clarifies producer Bill Kong. “It’s less about people in love, and more about this woman trying to discover in herself why she wants these two men. She represents something very modern in China; not just women’s liberation, but about a woman discovering what she could have. She’s strong, but very romantic, and is pursuing that truth in her heart”

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All the love in the world is not enough
To heal our sadness of separation
My tears flow back to themselves
If I disappear
You would hear nothing but silence

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It is the visual possibilities of the train that attracted Sun Zhou to the original novel upon which the film was based. “It plays just a small part in the novel,” he explains, “but this gave me a strong visual image to express the feelings I have about love. It’s like a train – it may not have a final destination, but here are passengers who will get on and off.” Indeed, it is the motif of the train moving back and forth across the countryside that is reflected in the film’s editing and visual style: we uncover Zhou Yu’s two romances as parallel train tracks that will never meet, linked forever by the body of the woman who rides the train between past and present, memory and reality, passion and sadness. “Running from place to place,” Zhou Yu tells us about her travels, “something is bound to happen.”

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If the moon can be both round and crescent
then a lake can be empty and full
If it’s in your heart then its real. If its not, then it never will be.

***

“For me, film is a place to dream,” concludes Sun Zhou. “Some would think that the character of Zhou Yu is strange, but I think she’s perfectly normal. Perhaps modern day people are peculiar, and Zhou Yu is the normal one. She is loyal to herself, very true from her feelings. There’s a line at the end of the film – ‘Who can be parted from Zhou Yu?’ I believe everything I want to say is in this line. Zhou Yu is love – can we escape from love? Truth is, if we choose to let things happen, then they will. In time, these things even may become the most significant things in your life.”

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Make You Feel My Love

Music By July 10, 2009 Tags: , , , 1 Comment

2009 Grammy award-winner Brit singer Adele sings

Bob Dylan’s Make You Feel My Love.

When the rain is blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear

And there is no one there to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet

But I would never do you wrong

I’ve known it from the moment that we met

No doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry I’d go black and blue

I’d go crawling down the avenue

No, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do

To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea

And on the highway of regret

Though winds of change are throwing wild and free

You ain’t seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy

Make your dreams come true

Nothing that I wouldn’t do

Go to the ends of the Earth for you

To make you feel my love

Her vocal in the music video is performed entirely live.

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So I finally have Adele’s album and it is now playing non-stop on my player. I love Adele. Even back when no one else was listening to her songs and the people on the counters at music stores said to me, “Who?!” every time I asked if they had her album. Interestingly, she was preceded by Amy Winehouse on that Grammy Award. I love, love, love Amy Winehouse. Though Ryan used to say to me, “Amy who?!?” Oh well..

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Top Ten Surprises of New Parenthood

MOMents By July 8, 2009 Tags: , , No Comments

No matter how much you prepare for it, parenting will blow your mind.

Your kids will challenge you, bring you to tears, crack you up, and make you forget what you urgently had to do. They’ll shatter the life you knew into a million pieces. Then they’ll put it back together, like a stained-glass window, into something infinitely more complicated and beautiful.

While every parent’s biggest surprises are different, there are common themes to the ways that kids revolutionize our lives…

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Chasing Pavements

Music By July 7, 2009 Tags: , , , No Comments

I’ve made up my mind,
Don’t need to think it over,
If I’m wrong I am right,
Don’t need to look no further,
This ain’t lust,
I know this is love but,

If I tell the world,
I’ll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And that’s exactly what I need to do,
If I’m in love with you,

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

I’d build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Waiting as my heart drops,
And my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If I knew my place should I leave it there?
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

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Been liking this song for some time now, maybe a year, and I kept looking for it at Powerbooks in Bonifacio High Street but they just didn’t have it.

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Love Stories : After the Break-Up (Na naman?!)

Old Writings By July 6, 2009 Tags: , No Comments

Contributed by angkULET (Edited by wkt)
Wednesday, October 29, 2003 @ 04:01:11 PM

This letter was written with the intention to let your fears subside and let your mind be pacified. I must admit that right now I have no idea as to what you are feeling, simply because I choose not to think about it. My mind is full of other things, things that I think deserve my attention the most. I am sorry if you are as affected as you are, but I cannot do anything about it except write you this letter in the hope that you may understand.

I am alone. I have not found somebody else. Nor do I have any intentions of doing so. I am content living my life on my own, living by myself and thinking of no one but myself and nothing but things that concern myself. No, I am not being self-centered. I just don’t have the capacity to think of other things anymore. My mind is as troubled as my heart and my thoughts as jumbled as my life. And I hope that answers your persistent question as to whether I am missing you or not.

Unlike you, I do not and will not send text messages asking how you are, where you are and what you are doing. It’s not only that I am preoccupied with myself but also because I simply do not want to know. I do not want to think of you. I do not like thinking of you either. So, most of the time, it seems to me as if you don’t exist or that there used to be someone like you, named as you are, in my life. However, you may find some consolation in knowing that I speak of you often and mention you in my many conversations with other people, most especially those who chose to stay even when I was at my worst.

You could have not foreseen that an incident that kept being repeated in the course of many months, the last months of our struggle to keep the relationship, would lead to something like this. Neither did I. Although many other things and people were instrumental in making this possible, your role and your actions were pivotal. It was the turning point. If at times during your musings you happen to think of whose fault it is that we separated, I hope that you remember the night when I came to you and you turned me away crying like the crazy girl that I am. And further, I hope that the words you uttered to me that fateful night will keep on ringing in your ear, serving as a constant reminder that it was your words causing you this pain.

I can stand on my own two feet. Now I really do believe I can. For after all, I had my two feet even before you came along. In fact, I didn’t need an extra pair. I can find my own way to the movies, to the mall, to the restaurant, to my tambayan, and most especially to my house. Now that I think about it, the extra pair of feet that came with the relationship only meant I had to go to more places and mingle with more and more people with still more feet, even to those I had no business with. I realize now that my life is complicated enough as it is and I do not need to concern myself with the intricacies of another person’s life. My own is heavy enough for me to carry. I shouldn’t be putting up annexes.

It may gladden your heart to know that I am doing well. I hope it does anyway. I am coping. My life is less stressful, merely because it is simpler. I need only to think about myself and things somehow turn out fine. I know I will get through this difficult segment of my life and it gives me such pride to think that after this is all over, I will have no one to thank for but myself. Or that if I have a list of people I would have to thank for, it is shorter, simply because it does not include you. If I think this way, can you blame me? You left me when I needed you most.

I do not think of the happy times we had or the good things we shared. The good things do not make up for the horrible, to the point of being pathetic, times I had to go through for you and because of you. Now I find comfort in knowing that it is all behind me now, I will not go through it again and more importantly, I do not have to take it from you. When I think of you, what comes to my mind is that, “Thank God it is over.” I do not think of the good things, because it drags with it memories of the bad. I simply do not think at all anymore. And it suits me just fine.

I have by chance come upon this book by a certain Joshua Harris entitled, “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” and it is as if there was something other than pure chance that brought this book into my hands. It has changed my way of thinking and I believe, did a lot for my thought-remodeling. I would like to share with you the things that has been pricking my brain. But I guess at some other time.

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Hello Philippines (How can I help you?)

Theater By July 5, 2009 Tags: , , , No Comments

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The UP Repertory Company Alumni Association and the UP Repertory Company presents its first joint offering for 2009: Hello Philippines!

Hello Philippines, a one act musical, is a humorous take on call center culture. Team leader Tiffany tells five agents from his team that one of them is going to get axed. The twist, however, is that he will leave that decision to the five agents. So now, it’s up to ex-tibak Anton, clueless rich girl Berni, the slutty Toni, the probinsyanong Brichi, and the overly religious Elsa to do whatever it takes to keep their jobs. Whatever it takes.

Hello Philippines is viciously funny and holds nothing sacred as it skewers the “call center lifestyle”, a life cycle born out of fast money and desperation, shifting body clocks, and too much coffee, beer, and cigarettes. It attempts to put into perspective all the sacrifices one makes to stay in such an environment, albeit in an entertaining manner.

The Story behind “Hello Philippines!”

Before “Hello…”, there was Chupacabra

Hello Philippines! traces its origin from the play Chupacabra, written by UP Rep alumnus Abet Cruz.  Chupacabra was written as part of a minor productionback in 2007 that saw the play staged at UP’s dormitory circuit.  The dorm tour, centering on call center lifestyle, was a smashing success thanks to the sheer hilarity of Chupacabra.

Even at its earliest incarnations, Chupacabra was a powerful, rollicking, laugh-a-second satire that got the message across.  Since those stagings, there has been talk of restaging Chupacabra due to the overwhelming popularity of the play.  The interest flagged down a bit though; with UP celebrating its centennial, UP Rep decided to do a more UP-centric production for AY 2007-08.  And so, Chupacabra was shelved.

But you can’t keep a good play down.  When the UP Rep alumni started talking about what play they could stage for their inagural offering, quite a few suggested we take a look at Chupacabra again.  Two years since its last staging, Chupacabra was still every bit as funny and irreverent as we remembered it to be.  But, if we were serious in staging this play, we would need to make changes to the play.


Pimp my play

We all loved Chupacabra, but the play needed work.  Chupacabra was very raw and experimental, and we needed to give it a bit of a polish.

With that, Abet revisited his script and started retooling everything.  We also agreed to make the play longer by turning it into a musical.  And we also felt that we couldn’t keep the old name Chupacabra anymore.  That title, more than anything, was an inside joke.  We settled on calling it Hello Philippines!.

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Watch HELLO PHILIPPINES at Aldaba Hall Dance Studio, UP Diliman on August 12, 13, 14, 15, & 16, and at Tanghalang Julian Felipe, De La Salle University РDasmari̱as on August 27 and 28!

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